8/21/06

``blog`` sounds like the feeling i had when i pushed past the block in my spine. the first few times i got to that point using spinal spirals i could not proceed beyond it and i was frightened to feel that wall. there was also an acute emotion triggered in that point, and the first few times i poked it i felt like i would cry. when i dwelled on the point using vertical spirals it became less guarded and i could sense its complexity even though i could not undo the disturbance or move beyond it. the one time i forced myself to move beyond it--``blog!``--my energy promptly derailed from my spine and travelled into the muscle near my left shoulder, which startled me and felt un-healing. i will not force energy to move again, but would like to keep working below and on the blocked area.